My Dream, My Legacy ..♥

So recently I read something (not sure what it was , probably home work) and it asked me what would I want to be as a back up career if my main career goals didn't pan out , and I was just beside myself .. To this very moment I still don't know .
For any of you that have actually seen my Facebook page (aka online portfolio) , or read a lot of my other posts , my passion is hair . It's what I love to do and what I have been doing my whole life pretty much . I started getting more and more into hair dressing around 7-9 years old , and I wanted to try every thing I saw , wanted to watch all the hair dressers at the stores , and all the shows .. And I wanted more than anything to practice , but no one wanted to let the little 9 year old experiment on them .. So I did my own hair . I have taught myself almost every thing I know about hair , how to do it , how to maintain it, and how to keep it healthy . When I was about 12 , I decided I wanted to own my own salon , that hair was what I wanted to do for the rest of my life .. But I also didn't want to be working under some one else for the rest of my working years , as you know from previous posts I'm not good with rules .. Every one tried to give me reasons as to why it wouldn't work . "You'll never be able to afford the building" , "You wont be able to handle standing on your for feet all day" , "You ALREADY have back problems" , "do you know how many hair salons there are ? what makes yours so special?" , And the best of all , "you can never run a business w/o a business degree" . Let me just say something .. I get that these are all real problems that may occur , real scenarios that could prevent me from doing this job for the rest of my life .. but you know what .. This isnt my LEGACY for no reason . This is what I am good at and what I love .. No , as of right now I don't have a fall back , but you know what , IM YOUNG . I have time . And in response to those comments ..
1. If I save up enough money , I can have any building I please
2. I've stood longer, walked longer, and it's not like i'm not ALREADY doing hair all the time , I'll just have a designated spot for it .. let me worry about my feet
3. I am working on getting my paper work in order tomorrow so I can get my physical therapy and hopefully not have to live with this bad of a back well into my adult years .
4. YES , there are a lot of salons , great ones at that .. But none of them have ME !
5. and YES I absolutely can run a business w/o a degree . I learn fast and I don't remake old mistakes . If I can manage myself I can manage a building , it really isnt much different . I need to handle to income and output of the cash flow , monitor the stock in the store , do taxes on time , keep tabs on my employees , make sure my building it up to code and DO GREAT HAIR .
So , if you would like to help me along with my dream , and you live in sacramento .. I would love some new clients ! (: I do a range of hair styles and designs . I will post a link to my page which includes what I can do , what I have done  , and a price chart ..
Help me live my dream ..<3
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Hair portfolio !

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See you again ..

Having people close to you is amazing feeling .. It makes you feel like you are never alone . Until what is closest to you is ripped away . My best friend and I have had an amazing relationship , very hard and lots of fights , but we always stay best friends , I couldn't live with out her .
Her family has been more family to me over the years than my own family has been in my entire lifetime .. It's still like that /:
We found out last month .. her little sister was being taken from us ... When was the last time that CPS did something helpful ..? I have never seen it .. I've had a few experiences with them .. They usually ignore important cases and rip apart families that could have solved small problems on their own .
My best friend and I love to sing . We have been performing at an amazing little coffee shop , Extreme Java Jungle Cafe , but this last performance .. We had to call off ... Her sister was always the one to cheer loudest , always clapped the longest .. Even recoded us so we could put our name out there .. It didn't feel right with out her there .
Luckily we had an amazing guy to work with , the store owner .. He was so understanding of our family situation and told us we are more than welcome to come back as soon as we are ready . Thank you Ralph , you've been great !
The day Sydni left , I had seen her that morning .. I hugged her as she cried , wiped away a few of her tears , and told her I loved her , not knowing when was the next time I would see her or even hear from her . As our dad dropped me off at home , i said good bye to him and the girls , stared right into her eyes , and turned away before they watered .. No sooner than I got to my door they were gone ..
I titled this post 'see you again' because i finally found a song that with in the first verse explains that day perfectly .. The song is by Carrie Underwood ..
'Said goodbye , turned around , and you were gone , gone , gone , faded into the setting sun .. Slipped away'. I cried the first day I heard this song cause it not only mimics the last day i saw sissy , but the last night i saw my grandfather before he passed ..
I hope that anyone who is missing some one right now , can read this and take comfort in the fact that we are all missing someone . If they left .. They will be back , and they died , you will be with them soon .. Timing is everything in this life . And even when it seems like the worst possible timing , for what ever reason , it is.probably perfect .

Family , in the blood or the heart ? (Part 1)

    I wonder how people think about things , I always wonder what life is like from another person's perspective . It's physically impossible to ever get the chance to explore that idea , and simply asking isn't going to give you a perfect scenario of what they think , how they feel , how life affects them .
For the most part it is easy to tell when a person is sad or upset , but to really understand how they FEEL , it's damn near impossible ..
    That being said , I wonder how people feel about 'Family' . I only put quotes around it because some people feel very strongly that if you aren't blood , you aren't family . Other people normally accept others if they've been legally married into the family , but not a second before . I ; however , will adopt any one who has my time , devotion , and heart , and can prove to me that they love me and care about me for who I am as a person . Some one who I can cry to and rely on , someone who puts as much time and effort into the relationship as I do .
    I have 2 (possibly 3) biological half brothers .. Two of which I have never met . I NEVER say ; however , that I only have 2 siblings I say I have 6 . I am the middle of seven kids for about 9 years now . Although my step siblings are no longer legally bound to me , they tugged on my heart strings from day one , and my heart tied them to me . They have given me a wonderful step mother and 3 gorgeous nieces that I love and cherish like no other . They are truly amazing people , slightly crazy and dramatic , but they all have great hearts ♥
   I have also noticed they adopt close friends and married relatives into their lives as well .. Examples are , my eldest sisters boyfriend , my moms friends Matt and Mardelle and their girls . We are kinda crazy and really dysfunctional but we always have each others backs .

   My oldest sister , Nicci , she was a burn victim at age 7 . I admire her to
this day for her confidence and perseverance in life . She has two beautiful daughters that I love with all my heart , and she is a California girl with a down south attitude .

After her is my sister Noni . She is loud , bold , NEVER out spoken by anyone , proud , beautiful , and short .. very short Cx She gave me a gorgeous niece also who is just the cutest (loudest) little angel ever . She is very protective and loving and loves companionship .


My big bubba , Ty . He is soo colorful .. Sportin' the rainbow bitchezzz ;) He is other sister born with a penis . He is crazy , loud , fun , passionate , and well .. Gay , in both senses . He is quite a character , but he knows that in our family no one is gonna fuck with him , cause of who he fucks that don't fly .
My baby sister , Mimi , my star athlete ! This little girl , impossible to sleep next to ! But crazy not to love . She is a ball of fun , unless she is grumpy then ya know , keep your distance lol . She is my little piece of heaven , she is always so fun and active , with a loving heart . She brightens my day , no matter what mood I'm in .

And last but not least .. the baby , Kel .. The ring leader of the 'Pain in the ass crew' . This little man has brought me so many laughs over the years , he truly is the best baby brother .... Never mind the fact he stole my dimples and dad's tall genes -___-
We recently discovered he has autism , which is what has been making it hard to handle him for many years , but we finally understand that with him certain things have to be handled differently than other . Noni and I plan on soon getting Autism awareness puzzle pieces to show our love and support for our little man .

I gained so many amazing family members from a terrible experience .. I could not trade a single one of them for the world . They keep me together .
Mom , Grandma , Papa , Aunts , Uncles , Cousins .. They all warm my heart and accept me as their own .. what more could an adopted kid hope for ? (:
-Nelle♥

Have you ever ..

Have you ever been scared out of your mind , for something that has nothing to do with you ?
Something that couldn't have LESS to do with you ..
Well , I have ... ermm ... am . I found out Saturday my sister had to get surgery .. She has an infection and an impassable kidney stone .. So they had to put a stick into her tubes to allow the liquid to still pass , and once the infection is gone she has to get surgery to have the stone broken up so it can pass ..
The hospital is calling this 'minor surgery' .. Now of coarse , compared to something like open heart surgery .. yeah , pretty minor .. But they don't know my sister and her history .. My sister has had more surgeries in her life than a woman of only 22 should have had to endure , and they started when she was 7 .. She was in a terrible house fire , burned from head to toe . She had to have surgery , skin graphs , and a blood transfusion . Since then he has also had surgery to remove some of the skin on her pinkie finger , cause they over graphed it .. and she has had a cesarean section for both of her beautiful daughters . However , the first C-section ... was not by choice .. She got toxiemia 5 weeks before the babies due date and had to have an emergency C-sectionv, for the well being of her and her daughter . This surgery left the baby in the NICU , and my sister needing a blood transfusion .. again . I am not very religious .. but i prayed every day she would be okay ..
My sister is strong , opionionated , fiesty , happy , couragious , and crazy .. but will power , it just can't fight against medical statistics .. This surgery has me scared shittless , I wish I could walk with her every step of the way ..
Ashley has always been my best friend , and I know she'll make it through cause she always does .. I just wish we could skip over it actually happening , for her sake more than anything .. I can tell she is scared and in pain even though she keeps a straight face .. I know my sister . A small part of her is saying 'Common , this aint your first rodeo !' And every other part is screaming 'What will happen to your girls?' 'How will my husband take it?' 'Is this going to hurt?' 'I know this aint my first rodeo .. but could it be my last..?'

Well Ashley , I'm here to tell you that this is not your last rodeo sister ! We are all here for you every step of the way , and we love you to pieces .
And for the record if anything happens to you over the course of the girl's life time , I have no problem being super auntie and helping out , after all having Nessa here that week was soo much fun ! (:
I love you sissy , you're strong and amazing .. You can do this .
-Nelle♥

High School

Can every one just agree that high school is just a pain in the ass ? Between the work , the drama , relationships , earning independence , the responsibilities .. That's just the average , but every teen has their very own trials and tribulations to add to that . Some have abusive parents , some have no parents , some are battling weight issues , some being bullied , some raising their siblings , some raising their own kids .

 Believe it or not there are some kids who go through it all . For me , high school has been a series of horror stories . Freshman year , I started in Visions . I started off great , then last minute we got told we had to move in two weeks , less than a week before we had to be out our car broke down on the freeway and we had no transportation . We rented a U-Haul , got a storage , packed it as much as we could and put what wouldn't fit there into our useless car that sat in the parking lot of my moms school . We stayed in motels for about a week before we found a place to move into .
The day we looked at the place, not even 15 minutes before we met with the land lady , my school calls me telling me that they are scheduling an academic intervention because I haven't been doing my school work . Mind you , Visions is mostly electronic now , and the computer they gave me was sitting in a storage unit , 6 miles from our motel room . I decided then , they if they cant work with me under such circumstances , it wasn't even worth it .. And I stopped trying in school . Worst mistake of my life .
January of 2012 , I un-enrolled from Visions , and enrolled into Options . I walked in with 55 credits and a terrible disposition towards school in general . I am currently 84 credits away from graduating , and I've closed out every class I have taken in the past year with nothing less than a B- .
 The point behind this whole story is that high school is shit . It's hard , it's unpleasant , nobody wants to do it . But the rewarding feeling you get when you're almost to the end , makes the entire experience worth it in the end . Although I have never gone to public high school , I have still endured my fair share of drama and BS . Between family problems , former friendships , relationships .
Being homeschooled does not by any means make high school easier , you just get to wake up later is all . I hate to see kids give up on school . I grant you , I have thought about it a couple times , but I know now , that it would have been my biggest mistake , and my biggest regret . It's not easy and it's not fun , but it's a stepping stone to something much bigger .

 What people don't understand is that , our economy can't get any better unless we help it . What it needs is motivated young adults to get themselves through high school , and then through college , whether that be university , community , or vocational . To get in , get the tools they need to succeed and make their imprint on the world . I know to any one in high school , that seems far fetched and a long time from now , but it really isn't ! Our future is right around the corner , we just have to be will to make the turn <3
Nelle ♥

Is it weird ?

Is it weird to have an adult best friend ? Unrelated of coarse , cause it's normal and very healthy to be close with the grown-ups in your family . I more mean , a man or woman who isn't otherwise connected to you becoming your best friend . Some one you go to with all your problems . This of coarse can get weirder depending on the age of the child/teen and the age of the adult , and it may change in certain peoples eye if the gender is different ..

But no . I have really found a best friend in a grown woman . I am 16 , she will be 34 this April . She has a son my age and a daughter a few years younger than us . She is the high school best friend of my boyfriend's mother , which is how I met her . She moved here with her son last year in March .. a couple weeks from now it will be a year . She was like hell on wheels . Loud , colorful , opinionated , fun , fierce , flirty , just a ball of awesome . She is funny , clumsy , a great cook , she is compassionate and heartfelt , helpful , and gives good advise . She will tell you how it is and if you don't like it ,"Tough shit!" . She don't give a damn ;)

I love to quote her , she has such comical a brash statements . She is a complete character all to herself , and I have loved every day of this last year with her . She has helped me through a lot . Problems with family , my relationship , other friend ships . She is never judgmental , she has been through so much in her life she feels as if she has no room to judge another person ( as any one should cause no one has room to judge ) . She is just amazing inside and out . She has been through hell and back and she finally had enough and broke down and cried to my boyfriend and I . I honestly didn't know how to handle it . My friends and family cry all the time , but SHE ... oh no . She was strong . One of the strongest women I know .
But you know what ? Everybody has their moments , and this was hers . She has been there for me through so much this past year . I just thought I would let her know that she is truly my best friend .
She had a baby at a young age , got married young , had another not long after . She is a great mom , raised two healthy , happy , strong willed kids , who are growing into a fine young man and woman .
 I know this may sound kind of backwards coming from younger to older , but I am really fucking proud of her . She came back to California with nothing , she left her life , and anything that didn't fit in her jeep , back in GA and came here and made something of herself .




As I write this she is working on her degree is cosmetology , and will be graduating sometime early summer . Thank you Marinello for giving my best friend a new start and a brand new lease on life . I am always going to be there for her , they same way she is there for me <3
Plus , we got a matching tattoo ... So , this biotch is stuck with me forevaa (;
Nelle ♥